So I’m going to be on the news tonight: the FOX local news here in Chicago (WFLD?) at 9pm. I believe the story is something like “Bloggers: they blog! But what is a blog, anyway? Could blogging happen to you?” I agreed to do it yesterday. What? I’m easy.

So FOX news came to my apartment to interview me and observe me doing bloggery things, like sitting down at my computer. I mean the act of sitting down was carefully recorded. I was instructed to walk across my room and sit down at my computer, and here is where it got complicated.

“Can we see you logging on?” the camera guy said.

“Um, well, I have cable, so it’s always on,” I told him. My browser window was open on the desktop.

The reporter looked worried. “Can’t you… you know,” she said. I began to sense they wanted to see something that said AND NOW HERE IS THE INTERNET or THUS WE GO FORTH INTO CYBERSPACE or whatever.

“I could close a browser window and then open it again,” I said. They didn’t say anything. “I could… put my computer in sleep mode, and then when I sit down the screen comes on… or–”

“Oh yeah. Do that,” the reporter said.

So I walked across the room and sat down and hit a key on my machine. I stared at the dark screen. I hadn’t realized how long it takes for my Mac to wake up, and I forgot that the screen fades up slowly, which made the whole thing appear way more dramatic than it ought to be. Maybe you’ll get to see for yourself.

Maybe if you’re in Chicago you’ll want to watch FOX news tonight at 9. No reason.

I was glad to come across this Curvers for Choice blog in my referral logs, because the woman who started it is not only willing to take up the disscussion of What to Do Now That You Know Your Gym Franchise Was Founded by An Anti-Abortion Creep, but also recognizes this news could do a lot towards raising funds for pro-choice organizations. She also clears up a few inaccuracies in the press accounts (and oops, I did pass along a couple of those) having to do with Heavin’s association with Operation Save America and the nature of the funds donated. In the end I don’t think there’s a right or wrong thing to do about this, as long as it’s done conscientiously and not with a “oh well,” kind of shrug.

And memo to Dawn Eden: that’s right, I said “cuddly fetus puppets”. I’ll say it again: CUDDLY FETUS PUPPETS, and what makes you think I’m talking about dead fetuses? Just because I advocate WANTON BABYKILLING doesn’t mean I think dead things are cuddly. Please, I’m not that goth. I don’t want dead fetuses like the dead fetuses in the decades-old pre Roe v. Wade dead fetus pictures the anti-choice movement has reproduced several thousand times for the purpose of showing WHAT DEAD FETUSES LOOK LIKE any more than you do, Dawn Eden. And yes, “cuddly fetus puppets” happens to be my cynical-young- whippersnapper-with- the-infernal-ironic-humor- style satirical catchphrase for the sort of tactics that are practiced in anti-abortion clinics like in this story. (You want a recent link? There’s one.) I know the pro-life movement doesn’t actually think that what’s inside a woman’s womb in the first trimester is a living Precious Moments figure, but so what if I like to joke that they do? Really, it’s just a matter of my sick fetus hyperbole versus theirs, and I’m not trying to pass mine off as the truth: the truth is somewhere in between. And frankly, the truth doesn’t make me “tremble inside” as Dawn Eden insists. Though who the hell is she to think that what goes on inside me�or any woman�is any of her business?

You know what’s going to happen if you don’t vote for my friend Doug, right? If you don’t vote, a band that sounds like Nickleback might win instead. All those other bands sound like Nickleback. We can’t have another Nickleback. This is why. That’s funny, right? It’s also kind of sad. Vote for Doug.

Oh my God I loved writing that last entry, but now is where the smoke clears.

There’s been discussion elsewhere about what the hell we should do about this whole Curves/Gary Heavin business. Curves is a franchise, and from what little I know about franchises, I bet a boycott would mostly hurt franchise owners–at least some of whom probably don’t share the same views as Heavin. When I wrote this last night I hadn’t thought much about what I’d do if I was a Curves member; I just saw anti-choice lobbying and comfy little gym presented side by side and weighed against each other as if they were equally significant, and that pissed me off.

But then, consider that out of all the businesses, institutions, and mind-bogglingly rich individuals who give money to icky pro-life causes, it happens that one of them is Gary Heavin. Which is to say, nearly two million women might know who Gary Heavin is, if you just count the Curves members alone. That’s a lucky thing when you think about it: when it comes to knowing the enemy, this guy’s in our sights.

A pro-choice reader and new Curves member wrote me to point out the franchise factor in terms of profits going to anti-choice organizations, and she thinks it could be a neglible amount. That might be true, but I don�t know for sure, so I’ve edited the previous entry to be less specific about the numbers.

People’s feelings seem to vary on this sort of thing: some want to know exactly how much money goes where; others see it in more symbolic terms and think any amount is too much. I’d love to see a pro-choice organization to do the math and figure out a donation amount sufficient to buy a soul back from Curves, so to speak. Or better, put on a walk/run/bike athletic fundraiser in order to match some of the money Gary Heavin gives to Operation Screw Us Over, and offer special incentives for Curves members, especially if they train for the event at Curves. Hell, we could form a whole bitch army and send them to train at Curves if we really got our shit together, and now I’ll leave it at that.

So whenever I check my referrals I notice I get at least one or two searches a day for Curves Gym, which I mentioned in this entry about a year ago. I didn’t join Curves for various reasons–the hours weren’t great and neither were the membership fees; the fact that it was in a storefront was unsettling to me. All kinds of bad theater, fringe religions, and pyramid scheme recruitments have happened in storefronts, and my impression was that Curves was just a little bit like all three of those. Mostly, though, it just looked kind of boring. It wasn’t for me, I thought, but I could have been making excuses, too.

But a lot of you wrote me and said Curves is a good place. From what I’ve heard, it is okay–in fact in a lot of ways, it’s great. I can’t possibly hate the concept: Curves loves the fat chicks, and our moms, and the whole sedentary sisterhood of North America; Curves wants us to be comfortable; Curves wants us all to work it because Curves knows we can! I’m being a little hammy here, I know, but hell, I’m all for it. Curves seemed to have the same philosophy I did in a different flavor–more flowery, maybe, and with a hint of Jesus, but close enough.

I don’t want to think any less of those values now, even as I read online and in Bitch magazine about how Curves entrepreneur Gary Heavin is an anti-choice activist. I mean, the guy funds “crisis pregnancy centers” with money from the Curves franchises. He’s “stepped up to the plate in a big way” by rounding up five million dollars to bring down Planned Parenthood in Texas. (And it seems like at one point in his life he was way too into the belief that God provides for unwanted children, because he sure as hell didn’t feel like paying child support.)

So, yeah, I think this guy is a total shitpig, but to be fair, there are other pro-life dickheads and companies out there. I get that some tool is always going to be backing up truckloads of money to the front doors of organizations who lie to women about their health care and say 9/11 is God’s punishment to our country and other really fucking endearing things. What I don’t get is the idea that this anti-choice bullshit is somehow an acceptable tradeoff for a goddamn gym.

No, really, think about it: A GYM. A gym that makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. For fuck’s sake, it’s not even a fully equipped gym. Part of your membership fee goes to buy cuddly fetus puppets or some crap and you don’t even get showers? If my sweat pays for DVDs of The Silent Scream you can motherfucking bet I want towel service.

For those of you who are against abortion, this is not about arguing with you. This is also not about making anyone feel guilty about going to Curves, whatever your position. By the same token, I don’t think anyone should get off saying that Curves is just a cheesy gym for housewives and they’d never go there anyway. Instead we need to think about how nearly 200 of these places are opening a month and what that means in a country where it’s getting increasingly, depressingly common for a woman to have to drive for hours to get to a family planning clinic. If you find this stuff distasteful, can you really say “But Curves is empowering,” and have it be completely all right? The whole woman-friendly, fat-friendly, make-me-feel-like-a-natural-woman happy environment in Curves is a great idea, but I don’t know if that makes it a feminist phenomenon. Mostly it sounds like swell marketing to me.

If you go to Curves, I understand you had good reasons for joining; if you aren’t crazy about where your money ultimately goes, I honestly don’t know what you should do. I just don’t think the benefits of Curves in any way balance out what’s happening in places like Texas.

I mean, what the hell is worse: feeling all pudgy and intimidated at a Bally’s, or being poor and at the mercy of some nutty CPC clinic staff who will make you wait a fucking month before they tell you that you’re pregnant and, oops, sorry, you’re in your second trimester? Like I can’t stand Step Aerobics classes, but at least I know Suzanne the instructor won’t call me a fornicator and keep me from getting the Pill.

Do you get how I think there’s a little fucking disparity here?

This is sort of about abortion rights but it’s about other things, too. I’m getting a little tired of bicep curls passing for women’s power. I’m glad so many of you believe in your health and I’m glad that you feel good about yourselves. I’m glad that you know the feeling of taking control of your own bodies. It’s a great feeling, but consider who you’re paying to feel that. Maybe we should all be doing more to offset that very great cost.

(p.s.: I couldn’t find a way to fit in a link to the March for Women’s Lives that happened in D.C. weekend, but I thought I’d mention it, in the spirit of doing things.)